“The Summer Sun” by Grace Kasanos

Summer time is near and it’s my body fear

Lumps and bumps, rolls and more I can’t stand to bare

Why is there hair , why am I here, why does my skin stay fair.

This life is unfair. 

Skin and bones i wish i didn’t feel as heavy as stone

I know i know but i can’t unlearn

I yearn for thin and nothing within.

I cry and try but it’s all a lie

I restrict, I starve, I harm my arms

Why can’t  I change 

Change who i am and who i am from 

Change how look and how breathe

Blowaway in the leaves

I just needed to leave 

To a place where I am alone, no mirrors, no people , no more.  

I want to change

I want to be brave

Show my scars without a care in the world

But I worry what the world thinks